Been Waiting...

Sorry that I have neglected you blog, I have been waiting for what I am not sure. I have been waiting for good news, happy news, a look up in life. I feel that although we have many many blessings, I have only been reporting bad news on here.  I had been waiting for some good news, something happy to tell you, but that time has not come yet, and yet I have news. Early this week John called me as he was at work and started the conversation with "I want to mentally prepare you..." OH WOW!!! Does he know me so well after only 6 years. The news floored me! I tryed to stay calm as I was talking to him, I didn't want him to think that I couldn't handle it. So as soon as I got off the phone with him I called my sisters. And told them. So the week went on with this thought brewing, freaking me out WHAT IF... Well yesterday it was basically confirmed, and now John is tell others, and he doesn't do that unless he know for sure!! When we come back from leave for Christmas, we will see each family for the first time for Christmas in 5 yrs, John will be leaving for Afghanistan, a few weeks later. He was already planning on deploying in Mid-February. But with the big troop increase, the Navy will be sending John a few weeks earlier to Afghanistan. I am dealing. I think I am more upset that he has to leave early than anything. I think. I am scared. This will be the first since we meet that we he deploys I won't go home for the whole time. I will visit, ALOT!! But I will be here all by myself with the boys. That most days I feel like I can barely make it until 4 when John gets home. And Noah has to see the eye dr again, the neurologist again, and an oropedic dr, AND and ear dr. I do have a wonderful ward who has already said that someone would go with me so I don't have to brave it alone. And our ward has been great so far, so I am sure that they will continue to be amazing, but still. Isaac will be in a different preschool, after the break, one that is for kids that fall on the austic spectrum, and have speech delays so that will be helpful for him. And its in the afternoon 4 days a week. So we will see about that. He is doing better, his speech is slowly improving, with his speech therapy. He tries so hard and is great kid. Yesterday he was so cute. Uncle Adam (one of John's older brothers) stop by for the afternoon. He lives up in Northern Cali, but was dropping off a load around here and had a few hours so he came to hang. He just wanted to hang out with "his friend". He got to play in Adam's truck and LOVED IT!!! Adam, John and Isaac played with John's new motorcycle, that I bought him. And was just being so cute. It is those days that are going to get me through I think. I hope. I pray